Whoa man...

Sometimes I sit and think, "Is this what life had in store for me?" I mean, for the most part, I am usually happy. But sometime, I am not. I am not sure that I can explain it. Is this as good as it gets? I don't know what to do or think. I wonder if I took the right path in life or if I made the right decisions. I am afraid that if I get into the habit of saying nothing wrong when there really is something bothering me that I will build up resentment. This is a horrible cycle that I repeat over in over in my life. I get jealous when I read messages from my friends and they are so happy and living a completely fulfilling life. Why can't I find that kind of happiness? Am I dooming myself?

I am sure to the outsider (reader) this post makes no sense. I promise to come back soon and elaborate on this as it becomes clearer to me. In the meantime, I had to get this off my chest.