Tomorrow is thanksgiving and while I am looking forward to the turkey and the sides I realize that I have so much to be thankful for in my life.
1. I am thankful for my wonderful boyfriend. I am thankful we have a loving relationship.
2. I am thankful that I have such a loving bond with Scott's son. I would be devastated to be "dad's horrible/ wicked/ ugly/ mean/ you name your foul description" girlfriend.
3. I am thankful for my job and Scott's job and for the simple fact that we have a roof over our heads and food in our bellies.
4. I am thankful for my family and friends. Sure, they aren't perfect and there is always some drama but they are MY family and friends and I love them.
5. I am thankful that infertility has not destroyed my relationship with Scott. It has not destroyed my soul. It has not killed me. I hate infertility but I am a stronger women because of it.
6. I am thankful for my health. My health may not be perfect but I am alive and I can enjoy my life.
7. I am thankful for my online friends and support system. I wish we could have met under different circumstances but I am glad to know them none the less. I wish we weren't all in the same infertility boat but I am so glad to support them and have them to support me too.
I know there is so much more to be thankful for and I know that the instant I hit "publish post" they will come to mind. But, I wanted to share the few things.
Happy Thanksgiving!
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Monday, November 24, 2008
The tell-tale signs
Today is November 24th and oddly enough it is also cd 24 for me. I noticed around lunchtime today that I had that tell-tale backache...and cramps. Sigh! I figured that af will make you way to my house near the end of the month...and honestly, I am not a bit surprised. Unlike last cycle I had no clue when or if I even ovulated this cycle. Last cycle, my body worked like it was supposed from af to O to af again. I was hopeful but more then anything excited that my body worked without the help of fertility medications. This cycle was back to my usual, whacked out, I am not sure that my body did what it's supposed to do cycle. I am quite certain that my healthy, lo-cal eating habits and 5 to 7 day a week workout forced my body to behave. Since, we left the country twice this month, my healthy eating habits and workouts have been missing. Oh well, I am back on the workout track and will do my best to eat better...until thanksgiving when I am not sure I will be able to control my turkey intake.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Cruising (on a sunday afternoon?)
Back from the cruise finally and somewhat caught up and now I am ready to blog! My first cruise was a memorable experience. Scott and I packed our house to be tented for termites and then off to the airport. We flew down to San Diego and hopped onto our boat, the Carnival Elation. Our first few hours on the boat, and we ate...and drank...and ate some more. Fast forward to Sunday and our first full day at sea (lets call it day 1). We worked out and attended a few "health" seminars. This of course took place between eating. We also attended the captain's message and watched a show.
Day two landed us in Cabo San Lucas. Oh, how I love Mexico. We skipped any excursions and walked over the Hard Rock Cafe. We enjoyed a day of more eating and drinking before hitting Hooters and back to the boat. Boy, did I enjoy my nap that evening before dinner. ;)
Day three was a "fun day at sea." I "forced" Scott to taking disco dance lessons with me! That evening we also attended a repeat cruisers event (Scott is a repeat cruiser) and got to take pictures with our captain. After dinner, we went to a bar to hear great 70's and 80's music. I danced in circles around Scott and had such a great time. I like the night life...I love to boogie...I am a dancing, dancing, dancing machine...I like to shake my groove thang. Ok, you get the point! I love dancing. We left the bar when the cigarette smoke got to bad and walked smack into the "Air Guitar" contest. They were looking for a judge so I volunteered. It was totally funny and the other judges and I had alot of fun.
Day four was the day we hit up Enseneda. We visited a "casino" and got a few free margarita's. Following the "casino" visit, we got a wine "tour" and did a wine "tasting." Then we went into town to shop. Once again, we stopped at a few places and ate fish taco's. We stopped at a place called Mango Mango's and I got to do some more dancing. We shopped around some and finally reboarded the boat.
The night before I took off my motion sickness patch and felt really bad on night of Day four. I was feeling every little roll and wave. We packed up after dinner and got ready to return to reality. That was the only bad thing about the cruise. Our wait staff at dinner was great as was the maitre'd. Our waiter took the time to point out all the vegetarian meals to me and brought out the captain's choice wine list to Scott every night. Our table mates were fun to talk to and we always enjoyed sharing stories about our day. When we had "formal" night, Scott and I were more of a casual formal as opposed to totally formal. But, we did not get any pictures together with our camera. :(
I will post links to the pictures once Scott publishes them to his site.
It was a great starter (practice) cruise but I am so glad to be home. I am actually looking forward to this Thanksgiving and eating some turkey. Gooble, gooble!
Day two landed us in Cabo San Lucas. Oh, how I love Mexico. We skipped any excursions and walked over the Hard Rock Cafe. We enjoyed a day of more eating and drinking before hitting Hooters and back to the boat. Boy, did I enjoy my nap that evening before dinner. ;)
Day three was a "fun day at sea." I "forced" Scott to taking disco dance lessons with me! That evening we also attended a repeat cruisers event (Scott is a repeat cruiser) and got to take pictures with our captain. After dinner, we went to a bar to hear great 70's and 80's music. I danced in circles around Scott and had such a great time. I like the night life...I love to boogie...I am a dancing, dancing, dancing machine...I like to shake my groove thang. Ok, you get the point! I love dancing. We left the bar when the cigarette smoke got to bad and walked smack into the "Air Guitar" contest. They were looking for a judge so I volunteered. It was totally funny and the other judges and I had alot of fun.
Day four was the day we hit up Enseneda. We visited a "casino" and got a few free margarita's. Following the "casino" visit, we got a wine "tour" and did a wine "tasting." Then we went into town to shop. Once again, we stopped at a few places and ate fish taco's. We stopped at a place called Mango Mango's and I got to do some more dancing. We shopped around some and finally reboarded the boat.
The night before I took off my motion sickness patch and felt really bad on night of Day four. I was feeling every little roll and wave. We packed up after dinner and got ready to return to reality. That was the only bad thing about the cruise. Our wait staff at dinner was great as was the maitre'd. Our waiter took the time to point out all the vegetarian meals to me and brought out the captain's choice wine list to Scott every night. Our table mates were fun to talk to and we always enjoyed sharing stories about our day. When we had "formal" night, Scott and I were more of a casual formal as opposed to totally formal. But, we did not get any pictures together with our camera. :(
I will post links to the pictures once Scott publishes them to his site.
It was a great starter (practice) cruise but I am so glad to be home. I am actually looking forward to this Thanksgiving and eating some turkey. Gooble, gooble!
Friday, November 14, 2008
Boot Camp redo
Today I finished my second full boot camp. I did not get measured so I am not sure if I lost any inches or any weight. But I did improve once again on my timed mile run! I am down to 11.35 for a mile and up to 40 push ups.
After boot camp, we all went to coffee. One of the ladies (J) was asking about my IVF. We talked for a while and then she told me her and her DH had to use IVF to conceive their son. J asked which clinic I was using and when I told her she was very excited. She used them too. She had nothing but great things to say about the clinic. While we were talking another women came up to me and said she over heard J and I talking. She told me her and her DH tried for along time too and finally took the IVF route too. I am not sure what her outcome was or any other details. J and I commented that when you are going through IVF, you can feel very alone. You know other women are suffering from IF too but you just don't know who until you start talking about it. It was just amazing that 2 of my fellow boot campers suffered IF.
Thank you everyone who poped on here to support me yesterday. I am forever grateful for the wonderful people who I have met on the various IF message boards. I really appreciate it! I was pretty down yesterday but today is a new day. I am leaving to go on my first ever cruise tomorrow and I am so excited! Not to mention that I love Mexico and we will be cruising down to Mexico. Whoo Hooo! And when we get back our house should be termite free. Yes!!!
After boot camp, we all went to coffee. One of the ladies (J) was asking about my IVF. We talked for a while and then she told me her and her DH had to use IVF to conceive their son. J asked which clinic I was using and when I told her she was very excited. She used them too. She had nothing but great things to say about the clinic. While we were talking another women came up to me and said she over heard J and I talking. She told me her and her DH tried for along time too and finally took the IVF route too. I am not sure what her outcome was or any other details. J and I commented that when you are going through IVF, you can feel very alone. You know other women are suffering from IF too but you just don't know who until you start talking about it. It was just amazing that 2 of my fellow boot campers suffered IF.
Thank you everyone who poped on here to support me yesterday. I am forever grateful for the wonderful people who I have met on the various IF message boards. I really appreciate it! I was pretty down yesterday but today is a new day. I am leaving to go on my first ever cruise tomorrow and I am so excited! Not to mention that I love Mexico and we will be cruising down to Mexico. Whoo Hooo! And when we get back our house should be termite free. Yes!!!
Thursday, November 13, 2008
3 years and no baby
3 years ago today was my true cd1. I was off the pill and ready to start baby making. I jumped into ttcing with all the gusto of a new ttcer. I temped and charted. I spent many hours reading all the books. I joined message boards. I studied my cp and cm religiously.
I knew then that it wouldn't happen "right away" and that maybe I would have "some" troubles. My cycles were a little irregular post birth control. But, I naively assumed that within 6 months I would be pregnant.
After 6 months of trying (and 3 painful UTI's) I went to my doctor. She ordered cd3 labs and cd21 labs. That was the start of the madness.
2 lap and thousands of dollars (and tears!) later, and I am still not a mom. I am not even close. Today is one of those days that IVF seems so far away. I wonder if I will be an insane, mad woman by the time we start our IVF.
Hey, at least I got out of bed today...right?!
I knew then that it wouldn't happen "right away" and that maybe I would have "some" troubles. My cycles were a little irregular post birth control. But, I naively assumed that within 6 months I would be pregnant.
After 6 months of trying (and 3 painful UTI's) I went to my doctor. She ordered cd3 labs and cd21 labs. That was the start of the madness.
2 lap and thousands of dollars (and tears!) later, and I am still not a mom. I am not even close. Today is one of those days that IVF seems so far away. I wonder if I will be an insane, mad woman by the time we start our IVF.
Hey, at least I got out of bed today...right?!
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
I have been hearted!
Elephantscanemember hearted me! I am so very excited to be hearted. I count Sherry as a fellow ttc and infertility warrior. I love to read her blog and hope for many great things to come her way.
Here are the Rules:
1. The winner can put the logo on his/her blog.
2. Link the person from whom you received your award.
3. Nominate at least seven other blogs
4. Put links of those blogs on yours, and
1. The winner can put the logo on his/her blog.
2. Link the person from whom you received your award.
3. Nominate at least seven other blogs
4. Put links of those blogs on yours, and
5. Leave a message on the blogs that you've nominated!
I will nominate:
2. Mrs. Steps at Baby Steps to Baby Shoes
3. Baby Step
5. Yoda's Mistress at We are What We Repeatedly Do
6. Water Bishop at An Older Version
7. TomKat at the Unlikely Life
Ok...off to deliver some happy news!
Some links to pictures
As promised, you can see out UK (well, London only) trip photo's here. I would post the photos we have of Hitchin and Helsinki but since they are also filled with pictures of Scott's co-workers I decided not to.
Enjoy!
Enjoy!
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